themeltingpot

Here is my question for everyone who might view my blog. Have you ever felt like that you are invisible. No matter how much you tried to prove yourself, you are still inferior to someone else. That person might not be smarter than you, or he might not be that attractive than you. But you are the one who is invisible in the group, while he/she is the most notable one. If you feel like this, undeniably, you have a little jealousy there, but that is human nature. I have no doubt that everyone, once in a while, wants to attention from everyone else around him/her. While you were trying to achieve that happen, it was just someone else victory.

I had experienced that too. In my family, my younger is always the center of attention. Although he made many mistakes in life, or he was acting mischief, no one would ever blame on his fault. On the opposite, I might not be that lucky. I have to work extra harder to prove myself. Or no one ever mention about my name in the family, like my uncle or aunt. Or better yet, if I made a small mistake, they might just gossip behind my back; makes me feel like I am the utmost sinner somehow.

At work too. Even though I work fast, and accurate. No no would mention my name ever. While another co - worker might just making jokes all day, and he got credits. In love too, there is a girl I like, but she seldomly open her heart to talk to me freely. She rather talk more to her other friends. I felt like even I am sitting side by side with her, I open up a topic. She just gave me a smile, and not much talking going on, I felt like it at least.

Self - evaluation: I might just be a biggest loser now. No matter how hard I tried on every situation. I might just repel other people from me. Maybe that is fate, I am not a people person. It is better for me to do everything alone.

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